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John DollarA Novel
When he’d gone they’d kept each other’s ring. Charlotte wore his on a thread between her breasts, she was stunned to find he hadn’t died with her ring somewhere on him. Now she had them both when even one was one too many. Sometimes she put them in her mouth. She put them on her tongue, one inside the other. She bit down on them. Sometimes she smoothed the paper of the letters that he’d written like shrouds over her face as she lay still. Sometimes she tried to hear his voice. She missed his face. She longed to know what it was doing. She held his shaving brush, she tried to touch her stomach with it but she couldn’t feel a thing beyond the cold. She tried to keep the locker closed so it would hold his smell but then she longed to hide herself away inside it. She couldn’t see his face.
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John DollarA Novel
The first thing we’ll build is a fire, Amanda decided. Her face hurt. She’d scratched her cheek on the coral and bitten her tongue. Her skin burned. And shelter, she said. ‘We have to stay out of the sun.’ Her mind was beginning to function. A day, or two days, at the most, she was thinking, then they’ll come back for us. Parents come back. Parents don’t go and forget where they’ve left their children.
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John DollarA Novel
She imagines John tells her there is nothing to be afraid of here, on this beach, this part of the island. He’d been here several nights and nothing had endangered him—only the sea, by swallowing him. No monsters would emerge from behind them in the jungly forest, she imagined he assures her, no demons would swoop down on them from the sky. Because she couldn’t really hear him over the din, their conversation sounded in her mind the way her conversations with her father do and so it didn’t seem that strange when she heard her father scolding her. He was very disappointed, he was saying—What was she doing here, in this place, Re-mote, godknows-how-many-thousand-miles away from Ammi? All he ever asked her to do was to take care of her mother, watch over the most beautiful of women. Now she had made that most beautiful woman most bereft—how could she have done it? of what had she been thinking?—why was she so wayward, so perverse, so bad?—why was she unworthy of anybody’s trust, of everybody’s love—?
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Home MovieA Novel
His hand had fallen as she moved. His expression was perplexed, one she’d seen a hundred times on teachers’ faces when they turned from the problem under study to that of the class’s persistent incomprehension. She turned away, to her flowers, and when she straightened, felt the shift in his gaze as if she’d been inside of it and now it were being withdrawn, unpinning her will, that went to him and away and stayed all at once. He said, “I’ve frightened you.”
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Home MovieA Novel
“Yes,” he said. “Here you are. Because you don’t believe it, do you?” She wanted not to, whatever it was, and, considering her, he seemed to be crediting her with knowing. “That there’s a findable future?” he said. “Or a world somewhere else with apparently pointless space between here and there and nothing along the way except repeated attacks on your senses. Which you’ll eventually be able to blame for making you so dull that you can’t recognize the future or the world once you’ve found it.” Now even her speech was spellbound, and she only looked at him, with the world shrinking to an understanding between them, intimate and completely foreign to her. “When, to know the world, all a man really needs is to be known,” he said. “And I know you.”
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Home MovieA Novel
He didn’t want to sleep. If he slept and the nightmare didn’t appear, he’d have to admit as fact what so far he only suspected and could still dismiss as fancy: It wasn’t a nightmare. It never was. It was the essence of daily life, stripped of the hum and shine and glancing distraction that made it glibly livable. When a nightmare emerged, the surface was merely wearing thin, a man was less and less satisfied with going willy-nilly across it, less and less convinced that moving light was an effective evasion, that what he could evade so easily would ever have mired him anyway. Underneath was helplessness, and a whole shifting sea of women couldn’t save him from the one he was bound to find, to fall for and finally see what those women with their strange dark eyes saw in him.
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M31A Family Romance
“There is an ocean of dreams,” Maryse was explaining, “that our sleeping heads dip back into late at night. The tides go in and out, cleansing the shore. Who we are is whatever silhouettes against that great sea. It is deep and vast and strong, and even in the clearest moment of the brightest day something is leaking in, a permanent trickle in the plumbing. Sometimes, in some of us, things collapse, but now the moment is approaching when the wave will break to carry us all away. This will happen. Consider the signs. Learn how to float.”
“But what’s all this got to do with UFOs?” asked Beale.
“They’re the openings the dreams come through.”
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M31A Family Romance
Gwen stared into a field of glittering stars no larger than pinheads. “Which one?’
“The big one. Right in the middle.”
“Jupiter?”
Dash moved in for another look. “M31,” he said as though pronouncing the classified name of the ultimate weapon. “Home.”
“That miniscule point,” Trinity explained, “is an entire spiral galaxy in the constellation Andromeda.”
“Where we all came from,” said Dash.
“And where we’re all going back to,” added Maryse. “As soon as they bring us the thermium for The Object.”
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M31A Family Romance
There were zones, he was saying, one should flee to in the Zero Time, his voice penetrating memory, sound and cadence evoking a time before her own father departed into a private zone of his own. She looked up at the impervious masquerade of his face, strange lips forming strange words in familiar ways. She produced a vague smile of interest when he looked at her, nodded intelligently when he paused. She knew nothing about this man.
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In a Father's PlaceStoriesFrom"On the Rivershore"
The boy’s name is Cecil Mayberry; he is twelve, white, and he knows something. He knows what his mother is going to make for supper, pot roast and green Jell-O salad; he knows that the Russians have put a Sputnik in the sky. But these are not the items that are just now on Cecil’s mind. He is thinking about a man, a waterman, lying face down in a tidal pool two hundred yards from where he sits. Cecil knows the man’s name, Grayson “Tommie” Todman, and he knows that two .22-caliber bullets have made a mess of Tommie’s head. He knows the first one entered just below the right cheekline, cutting short Tommie’s last Fuck You to the world, and the second one grazed through his hair before nipping in at the peak and blowing out a portion of Tommie’s unlamented brain.
In fact, this is going to be the first time in Cecil’s life—but not the last—that he is an undisputed expert on a certain subject. He knows who shot Tommie, and why.
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In a Father's PlaceStoriesFrom"Norfolk, 1969"
And now, when he looks back on the sixties, this is where Charlie Martin remembers himself, standing on that discarded spot, held by something in him from birth, or something remaining from that joyful crossing home six months earlier. When he came back from the next cruise Julie was not on the pier; she had left Norfolk, and him, by then. When his three years were up, he thought fleetingly, but hard, about staying in for three more, but there was never any chance that he would make a career in the Navy, just as there was never any chance that he would throw rocks and balloons full of pig blood at the Justice Department walls. The time for such choices was soon past, and the middle of the road widened enough for Charlie to leave behind the painful discoveries of youth and first love. What remained of Julie, and Norfolk, and the sixties was the sea, boundless and inexhaustible, the mystery and the source.
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In a Father's PlaceStoriesFrom"Hole in the Day"
Six hours ago Lonnie took one last look at Grant, at the oily flowered curtains and the kerosene heater, the tangled bed and the chipped white stove, at the very light of the place that was dim no matter how bright and was unlike any light she’d ever known before, and she ran. She ran from that single weathered dot on the plains because the babies that kept coming out of her were not going to stop, a new one was just beginning and she could already feel the suckling at her breast. Soon she will cross into Montana, or Minnesota, or Nebraska; she’s just driving and it doesn’t really matter to her where, because she is never coming back.
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The Ice at the Bottom of the WorldStoriesFrom"Strays"
We at school knew Mr. and Mrs. Cuts come from a family that eats children. There is a red metal tree with plastic-wrapped toys in the window and a long candy counter case to lure you in. Mr. and Mrs. Cuts have no children of their own. They ate them during a hard winter and salted the rest down for sandwiches the colored boy runs out to the pulpwood crew at noon. I count colored children going in to buy some candy to see how many make it back out, but generally our mother is ready to go home before I can tell. Our credit at Cuts is short.
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The Ice at the Bottom of the WorldStoriesFrom"Genius"
Here is a list of things Carol has thrown at Genius: a sneaker with a toe full of sand in it, a coffee cup with a crescent of coffee in it, a raisin box with a half a box of raisins in it, and a picture of Genius holding a young girl under red and green plastic lanterns strung beside a pool. All of the things Carol has thrown at Genius have hit him in the face. The picture of Genius holding the young girl beside the pool Carol had to throw at Genius’ face over and over because Genius was asleep. While Genius was asleep was always when Carol looked through his stuff and read his mail. When she found the picture of Genius holding the young girl she had to throw it as hard as she could on Genius’ face over and over again until Genius finally woke up.
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The Ice at the Bottom of the WorldStoriesFrom"Fishboy"
I began as a boy, as a human-being boy, a boy with a secret at sea and sentenced to cook in Big Miss Magine’s stone-scoured pot, my long fish body laid, tail flipping, into that solid stone pot, scales ripped and skin slipping from my meat tissue-threaded in the simmer, my body floating from my long, fish-bodied bones, my bones boiled through and through down to a hot bubbly sweet steaming broth, lisping whispers of steam twisting to the ceiling, curling in your curtains, speaking to you in your sleep.
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Rootie KazootieA Novel
“What do I want you to do? You really want to know? I’ll tell you. Just look me in the eye and tell me one thing. Just do it. Tell me whether you and Cynthia have made love. Tell me. Go on.”
“The answer is no.”
“You swear?”
“I swear.”
“I believe you,” she said quietly, and for a moment Richard thought it was over until she turned around and screamed at him, “THEN WHY DON’T YOU MAKE LOVE WITH ME?”
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Rootie KazootieA Novel
He and Cynthia stumbled toward the other side of the room as the entire front end of the tractor broke through the splintered door and entered the house. As it did, the muffler, coming out above the hood, hit the top of the doorway and snapped off.
Oh, help, Caroline thought.
“HOLY SHIT,” Richard screamed.
“STOP HER,” Cynthia yelled at him.
It was an unsettling sight, to put it mildly, for Cynthia to see the front end of a 6,000-pound tractor rolling across her Oriental carpet, the very carpet she had chosen so that all the colors complemented each other and the old pine floor, the deep earth-brown and tan and the reds and yellows, and now, a green, wheezing and roaring monster with oil dripping sat on that rug.
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Rootie KazootieA Novel
“It’s just that I hate being alone,” Caroline said. “I hate being poor, as well, and damn it all, here I go again back where I started. I hate going backwards. It takes so much out of you to get where you want to be. One person can’t do it nowadays, you know? It’s just too hard. You’ve got to have someone else. That’s what makes me so mad about that thing he’s run off with. She doesn’t need him any more than we need another hot day this summer. You know? She just doesn’t.”
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Stories in Another LanguageFrom"The Slit"
I thought, I bet the daughter’s glad she’s dead, because what her mother was doing, throwing herself into the grave on top of the box like that, looked funny. It looked funny because her mother was fat, and it looked so much like the mother was doing the Fat Man Dance, because her arms were spread out too, as if she were waiting for her daughter to spread out her arms also, and then they could hold hands and smack bellies together and dance in circles on the box just the way we always did in the summer when we did the Fat Man Dance. Because we always did the Fat Man Dance in the summer when we ran around with no clothes on and danced a lot because it was summer.
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Stories in Another LanguageFrom"The Headdress"
Before Touché put the sword down Karen’s throat, he told her not to move. He told her that it was something that people had to do together. He told her that both of them had to do it right or it would not work. Touché put Karen’s head back with his hand and then he put the sword down Karen’s throat. It looked to me like Karen was quiet, but I saw her eyes blink, maybe because the rain was falling into them.
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Stories in Another LanguageFrom"Stories in Another Language"
On a hillside in China my father told me that he would teach me to fly by the time I was nine and that he would teach me to drive by the time I was twelve. I never understood why my father wanted me to fly first before I learned how to drive. I guess it was because he liked flying best.
I never learned how to fly.
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ArabesquesA Novel
The intimate places of his father’s body were now within his reach, turned over to the touch of his fingers: his father who had never embraced him as a child. First he would touch his earlobes, to move them out of the way for the scissors, which had been taken out of the mother-of-pearl damascene box. Then he would take the nose between his thumb and forefinger, and give it a slight lift so as to shave above the upper lip. And the more the cancer gnawed away at the liver and the body grew limp, the more it opened to him, replete with its disappointments, sated with its tribulations. They would sit together in silence, the father and he, the youngest of his sons.
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ArabesquesA Novel
As the Jews’ army was making its way along the road winding up to Deir El-Kasi, Abu Shacker was looting its houses. The inhabitants of Deir El-Kasi had not waited for the convoy to arrive. They were already across the border. And Abu Shacker, who had felt their outstretched arm upon his back in the days of the Arab Rebellion, now entered the home of Mahmood El-Ibraheem, who had been the regional commander in the days of the rebellion. The gate to the courtyard was open, as if the inhabitants of the house had just stepped out for a moment to visit a neighbor. Abu Shacker entered through the gate and shut it behind him as if he were trying to preserve, if only for a moment, the vanishing past, and he stood in the courtyard, in the very spot where he had stood ten years before.
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ArabesquesA Novel
Imagine, then, a British soldier plummeting from the roof high above the third floor down into our courtyard, landing in a puddle of water from the early-December rain. The water splashes on the gas mask over the face of a boy playing by the puddle and blurs his vision. But first imagine a shot, just a single round from among the hundreds that had begun with the gray dawn, whose trajectory crisscrossed the skies of Haifa, in the warp and woof of the war between Jews and Arabs. Then imagine this one bullet hitting the soldier standing watch on the roof. He falls, and behind him the sharp spire of St. John’s Church rises toward the brightening sky. The boy, who is about seven, freezes to the spot where the thud has caught him trying to frighten a neighbor’s daughter with the gas mask he has bought from a peddler of military equipment. Now imagine the long second that passes between the thud and the scream: the silence that falls on the courtyard and is cast over the body, and then is lifted by the scream, which hangs in the air until the silence wraps itself again around the still body.
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Father MustStoriesFrom"Satellite Dish"
I like a crusty bread. Last spring, when the man who sold my son the satellite dish told him that the signal wasn’t coming in good because of the big old elm tree across the road by the house, that it was getting in the way of the reception, everyone—my son, my daughter-in-law, my grandsons, and then, because everyone else was, even the man—looked at me. I loved that tree. It was always there. It would always make me feel good to walk in the yard through its patterned shadow on my way into the house. But then, across the road, there was the satellite dish. I said they could chop the tree down but I wanted every bit of wood from it cut and stacked in a pile by itself. And though I hadn’t done it for years, since we’d got an electric stove and a furnace, I started back using the old wood stove, which we’d left in the kitchen mostly for looks. It’s better to cook bread in a wood stove anyway. You can tell the difference not just in the crust but also in taste.
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Father MustStoriesFrom"Read Chinese"
… sometimes in the coffee and pastry shops here in Chinatown I mimic the words I hear, but very softly. If you do it, don’t get too loud, because then it sounds like an echo, and people start looking around.
Chinese, spoken, is such a pleasing language. So many tones – it’s like singing. Since I don’t know what I’m saying, I never try to use those words when it comes my turn to order. I say, “One of those, one of those, one of those, one of those, and one of those. And one of those.” All in one tone. Not so pleasing.
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Father MustStoriesFrom"Jelly Doughnuts"
Simmi’s only been in New York three weeks, but the second night she was here Buck took her to a coffee place he knew, and now Simmi makes sure he takes her there every night. Maybe if there’s somewhere else they have to be, something one of them has to do, they’ll skip a night, but they couldn’t miss too many, because then it would become something they used to do. And that would make it part of the past. And what she thinks is part of the past Simmi won’t consider.
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The Floating WorldA Novel
My grandmother owned a valise in which she carried all her possessions, but the stories she told were also possessions. The stories were fantastic, yet I believed them. She said that when she was young fireflies had invaded her town, so the whole town was lighted even during the nighttime. She said she had been told that the summer she was born, strange clouds passed through the sky. Every night for seven nights, a different cloud. The clouds all had a strange glow, as if someone had taken the moon and stretched it into a cloud shape. Those seven moon-clouds, she said, had been a lucky omen. As she spoke, she always gestured a great deal, so the background to her stories would be the soft tinkling of the bell we had bought her.
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The Floating WorldA Novel
I grew up with cards. Solitaire and gin were perfect for the monotony of driving. Despite my small hands, when I was six I could make cards disappear behind the ears of my parents, or make the ace of spades always materialize at the top of the deck. When my brothers were old enough to play, each of us owned several decks, not including those with missing cards. My family had Bicycle decks, decks with tigers on the back, decks with wildflowers, and one deck my father got in the army that had naked ladies. He was very embarrassed when I found that deck one day while cleaning. “I never bought anything else like that in my life,” he said, “but a man’s got to be a man.”
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The Floating WorldA Novel
The night we packed, Tan came by after I’d gone to sleep. He called at my window, and we took a blanket into the trees. It would have been romantic, but a tick jumped into his ear and later we got rained out. Then, as I was climbing back through the window after saying good-bye for the last time, I slipped on the wet sill and fell into the mud with a wonderful suctiony sound. It was okay with me. The thing about our sex life was it made us feel close, not because it was romantic or beautiful or sweet or anything like that (although at times it was all of those), but mainly because it was a prodigious adventure we were going through together.
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